Wednesday, June 19, 2013

Taking a step back


I am sad to report that I am no longer with my former group and the reason is high gas prices.  I don’t own a car and I also have a hard time coming up with money for gas in addition to paying for investigations.  Now, I was not hundred percent certain this was the reason why my ride stopped coming to get me, but I have a strong suspicion it is the exact reason.  I would be called and asked to catch the bus to get to certain meetings or investigations and that was becoming a problem for me.  Also, the fact that the year is half over and I have only been to ONE cemetery is further proof that my theory is spot on.   One last thing that convinced me 100 percent was a recent meeting that came and went without so much as a call from my ride.  I also believe that they investigated a house without me that night as well. 

Please don’t get me wrong, I love to ghost hunt.  I may have a lot of fears, but the paranormal is not one of them.  I will stay in a dark room all by myself for hours if I have to and I do not mind going over evidence.  The few things I will not tolerate though is group leaders with huge egos or me being put on a shelf in a dusty basement like some old relic that is no longer needed.  I had found myself becoming increasingly less involved which drove me insane.   Now some of that was my fault which I did not discover until I attended a group class that was held some time back.  I realized that I misunderstood how to hook up a piece of equipment that I was taught when I first joined.  I racked my brain trying to remember if I was told that from the beginning and I don’t remember if I was.  The leader was nice enough to let it go each time, but I wish for evidence sake that I would have caught on sooner.  I don’t really like touching other people’s things anyway because I can get clumsy sometimes when I get nervous.  The last thing I want to do is break anything, but I tried my best not to.  However, that could have been avoided by just not having me touch the equipment, but I guess since I was not paying gas money that was the only way I could go. 

As a word of warning, if you are friends with someone, please for the sake of your friendship do NOT ghost hunt with them.  I have had several people now say they were my friends just to treat me like last night’s garbage just because I had problems with their management of the groups.  I cannot understand how anyone can be that way.  I am still the same as I was when they were teasing me for not talking, yet now I am a leper.  All I did was leave due to unsatisfactory conditions, yet I am the most vile of scum you can imagine.  Well, maybe not, but at least not worthy enough to have contact with or keep articles up that I had written for them.   The sad thing is that I had removed all the content on this blog and deactivated my facebook account sometime early this year without nary a notice from anyone of my “friends”.  Good thing I wasn’t suicidal and had left a message, I would not be here right now. The first time I had a problem with a group, I was angry.  I have learned, mainly by the actions of others, that is not the way to be.  Right now I am hurt more than anything.    

A few final things before I go.  This will most likely be my last entry on this blog.  If you are having problems that require a ghost hunting team, please check out S.I.G.N.  The leader, Jack Oliver, is a stand up guy and if you live near him, he is the man to contact. 

I hope one day I will get to ghost hunt again, but as for now I guess I am on hiatus.  It really is sad when groups can only find the occasional thrill seeker here and there then someone like me is thrown away, but that is life I suppose.  I don’t want to sound too dramatic, but it is times like this that make me question if I should drop Christianity and take up paganism.  Why?  The two leaders I had, both claim they are Christian.   Well, I have a hard time believing that Jesus would treat me like an outcast as I feel like I am now.  It is sad, but true.

Anyway, my final words are, please by all means LOVE your friends, try to follow the golden rule and may god bless you all. 

Until next time.